Fairytales...

4 more weekends in HK.

2006-09-03T10:50:00.000+08:00

I"m going home next week..and bringing back all my junk first..haha!
Got some time to organize the curtains and wardrobe fittings for the house!! hahah..
And yes i'm going to get some cool lights for the place and put up stylish mirrors as well! I am going to have a designer flat-designer=me! hahaha...
so we going to have a christmas party cum house party! Wldn't that be cool???hahhaa..

Life is different now when work life starts.. it feels different..it becomes more corporate more foreign but i'm thankful for good collegues who are friendly and sincere!

So my plan today is MONGKOK!! Finally i'm going shopping in mongkok..but ah.. i do have somemore cash till wed when i go back to reload ammunition!! hahaha...

I"m so blessed.
There is no condemnation.
NO confusion..

I am listening to P. prince now. I love his messages .. He brings God's word into my heart!

I Thank God for all his blessings in my life!

Tues-Monday

2006-08-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

My monday became my tues!:)

My biggest fan now- Chevyn..!

So HK air isn't that good now... Having a flu and food poisoning..isn't the best combination!
But God has been good! He has made me better in a day! He is my strength.. Church at The Apex was good. It's on the 75 floor on central plaza. I can see so much of HK and even the clouds are like on eye level!

Well, 8 weeks in HK has taken its toll on me. I'm missing home and now looking forward to being in my own bed next week for 4 nights. They gave me 2 off days !

so Dim sum and Repulse bay for the weekend was great- Bowling with the guys are work was fun as well! I was the 2nd best player.. surprisingly! Had so much fun at King's Hotel singing KTV old old English songs till 4am as well..lol.. I can't believe how crazy we can get!

Blogging Blogging

2006-08-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

Due to popular demand- i shall blog again! hahaha..

So i'm working now in HK.. been up here for 7 weeks now.. so much has happened!
Met all sorts of people here.. and made loads of friends..

Miss guys back in s'pore.. can't believe it- i actually booked flight back for 4 days then will be back here for another month.. ok so 2 more weeks and i be home sweet home..

On skype now so will post again!

love you guys..and yes.. I"m getting married!haha..

2006-04-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

The fear of the Lord prolong days, but the years of the wicked will be shortened- Proverbs 10:27 * the secret to long life!:) Well, the mark of the end of exams- to go to esplanade and ate so much till I have stomach pains! Cockels, sting ray... hokkien mee! Too much for me man! And then harry's... was cool jazz - sent off Jongeun to Korea- one day I would want to go back there and see how beautiful it is as like in the Korean drama! HAha.. It was way too young for me when I went there to ski during my teenage years... So Chevyn came by with medicine and flowers this morning.. HAHA.. so sweet of him.Had to cancel all my appointments today- three of them.. just to rest at home and take it all SLOW. So well, I'm happy now tt I have all the time in the world to enjoy life. The simplicities of life and the people in it. Aunt Leona asked if I were ok after Chevyn took me to Dr Liew. That was so sweet of her. And Chevyn came by again in the evenining to see if I were doing ok. Spoke to my Daddy regarding housing loans. HA... it's pretty high now! But with God , all things are possible-God has his ways for providing for us!:))) Well, so much for now. Guess it's better to turn in earlier since i'm recovering from Gastric!..... Oh boy- what can I do tomorrow- more reading of the books I have been missing.... And shopping when I have more energy to run around and compare prices! HAHA Cheerios!

2006-04-15T17:01:00.000+08:00

My marketing project mates!:) From left: Justin, Clarabelle, Yanling and mua!:) Was a fun group and the drama presentation was the best i think lah!HHA

2006-04-13T10:51:00.000+08:00

Milicent - the babe who just clicks so well with me..HAHA>>>>> She doesn't look CHINESE Man!!just like mua..HAHA>.yaya... cool. And well, I'm sure we be hanging out even though school days have ended.. BABES rock the world!

2006-04-13T10:47:00.000+08:00

MY lovely project group tt marked the end of my school days-the final presentation of NEGOTIATION! how apt.HAHA.. and yup, Xiuling is actually my sec school mate in Dunman High wow- time flies huh- we made full circle- and behind is Charis-who is from New Creation (my church too!)- and Cheryl and Wei Yuet- We made a great team-!!

2006-04-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

The glamor shot!! HAHA>. Just before going to meet Ang Ser Keng for some drinks near SMU building!! I actually was reading the whole day and had to look fresh for the photo!!!

2006-04-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

When I get tired of studying , I will come to my darling and say.. " OH Honey... Give me thee shoulder to lean on!!"

Red rose!!

2006-04-12T23:45:00.000+08:00

The 3 red roses that Chevyn gave me just last Tues when he picked me up at School to go watch ICE AGE!! The most romantic bf ever!!

Days before the Finals

2006-04-12T14:26:00.000+08:00

The final league is here. Yes- after this marks a new life- perhaps to the corporate world- perhaps eternal tai taism- i call it. But what can I say. Student life is still good. Stress comes from the books. But we can control the life. How much time is spent. We can sleep in the afternoon. We can wake up late. ! If you feel like a run- then go for it. I feel the fittest!

So working half a year on internships give me a glimpse of the working world. Everyone is racing against time. To get the work done. To make the buck till they kick the bucket. My goodness the stress levels! So why should all of us head and be so excited? What is life then??

To get the lovely home , to furnish it well would not be in the minds of my peers. But when one finds tt moment, perspectives changes. Now, it's no more PLAY time- better to save $$!
Yes, it's true, one grows up faster when considering of settling down and establishing a home!

Chevyn is so sweet- he dropped a surprise by coming over just to give me waffles. HAHA
That is so sweet of him! He came in for a drink and left. Thank God for such a guy-...:)) He likes springing surprises!!

Ok so much now. Will continue this blogging when exams are over!!

My today

2006-03-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

He got me a sweater from the next store while I was having coffee because I mentioned that it was cold- how sweet is that???? so touching..lol-hard to find such a caring bf.. let alone hubby!
Oh yar- so he has been picking me up from school-and we can almost do anything-to chatting long times on phone to dancing-to reading-to studying-shopping-chilling- cracking jokes-corny or simply singing!! lol

The sweetest things are to share love with someone who is also in love with God-we are in love!
God is love- The sweet things in life is showered on me.!! What more can I ask???
My heart rings a melody whenever I think on it. The dreams that comes true- I dont have to wish upon a star- I just have to ask-and God answers in His own sweet way-manisfestation of his love shown in a person so dear to me.

With you
Songs of love fills my soul
I've been in love for so long
Till the pages start to yellow
I'll be in love with you

Higher it seems I'm flying
Deeper it seems I'm falling
Stronger it seems I'm growing
Each day I spend with you

Longer than there are fishes in the ocean
Higher than any mountain

The softness
The stillness
The calmess

My heart stops

To behold of your beauty
To embrace your warmness
Like the breeze of a summer day

The skies are blue
.....
With you.

Joy Lim

2006-03-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

The warmth of my heart
That fills my entire being
With love
My face smiles and glows like the morning sun

The serenity of the night
The moon light that transcends
Reflected upon my countenance
The softness
The miracle

The river that is flowing
The secret whistling wind
The cool waters
Touching my feet

I look to the sky
My heart lifts up
My help and hope

My God-

Bored with mugging...

2006-02-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

So I am doing my mugging- for tomorrow's test- and after that I will be working on assigments and projects...... officially ending 18th april-which is pretty soon.. so there goes the job hunt....
What kind of job will I land..it's all a mystery-and I put my trust in God to provide-
He is faithful-and He has a higher plan far exceeding what I can comprehend-
I will always seek HIs will for my life and all things will just be added upon!

So now I'm just going to relax and enjoy the ride!!

So it's valentines day and I spent the entire day at home-with one job application in the morning- more to come during the weeks... I plan to make a couple more next week and see how it goes-;)

I'm really looking forward to meeting Chevyn tomorrow evening after the day is done-we will chill over some good dinner-

And then even though I have a full day on thurs- I know we be chilling out more on thurs night!!

ON fri- I will just meet my ex boss and will see if he is willing to accept me into his team- Well- God if so your will- I will be getting the offer- I do my best in everything my hands set out to do

So for now I"m really happy to meet different people- just sent off Sissi back to Italy- and that girl had excess baggage which she left with us to send back for her! She was very grateful..but I guess she is a student and I understand that we have alot of baggage! -Same for my exchange to Denmark!

So Chevyn is such a darling as he gave me a pearl bracelet frm Goldheart and a huge card!! It was so sweet.....He made me close my eyes and I was surprised!!

Y"es girls do like surprises... We thrive on them...HAHA!!

today I managed to get 11 chapters read and then I will sleep early to get enough rest.. I actaully had an afternoon nap!!

Ok i guess at this rate I would be writing quite alot to bore everyone..
so much for now..Till next time**Ball seems to be rolling for the blogging once more!!!**

I just wanna play some b-ball or tennis over the weekend to get the body moving-I felt so lethargic!! Have not been running for weeks..and exercise-oh yes I wanna join the salsa class!!!!

Cheers guys!!

love of my life

2006-02-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

To know that I am loved is the best thing that can happen to me!-
yes all of us want to be loved.. and yes we know that God loves us-and he transforms that into a real human being on earth to show how much he truly loves me-
To date I have enjoyed one of the best times of my life-to know i can possibly embark on greater things in life-to feel that added support and emotional bond...

thanks my man-chevyn
whom i'm going to hv lunch now and my family is calling!!hehehe!!

Cheers to all-
sorries for the break in posting-forgot my password!!!
stay tuned!

exam fever

2005-11-26T14:46:00.000+08:00

It is the exam fever time.. and yet everything seems to be happening all at one shot- falling in love.. and interviews..and planning long term- and discipline.. yes.. all in all I must say that I'm still prettymuch in focus. Never to lose sight that the one who holds my future is still my dear heavenly father- nothing can compare to Him- and His promise gives me such peace.=)

"But the fruits of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control. Against such there is no law. " Galatians 5: 22-23

I would want to live by His word and bear fruits. He is the reason I'm alive..=) ANd yes I plan to live they way He would want... I am thanking Him each day for the blessings He has showered upon me. -- Eg. Rigan sent me the whole album of wonderful songs!! My goodness- I am listening to them all the day while I do my AFA revision....!! Thanks man!! It makes all the diff!!

Last night-chevyn took me out for mexican at margarita--wow.. it's been so long since I went there- and my oh my.. it was somewhat a craving and thanks man..for being so loving..and caring towards even my tummy=tubby!hahaha!!!! Cant thank God enough for you as it seems we are such great buddies, soul mates and darlings to each other!!!=pphahaha!

Alright- life cannot get to a bore even though it is exam fever= cause i know the purpose of my life- I live by it and am focused on His kingdom-knowing that all "these things shall be added"unto me!!!!

So people out there- hang in there for the exams and let's make big big christmas parties this year!!!!!=pp

My days...

2005-11-24T10:33:00.000+08:00

Exciting it can get- yesterday full day interview went well- Chevyn was very supportive- it helped me alot- and yes the prayers - God you are great!!=) You gave me the strength to go through it and am blessed beyond my imagination. Lord, I love you, really love you. Only you am I complete!=)

Will be pressing in.. and I want to draw near- that's where I find solace, find peace which passes all understanding and love that flows like the river! Great anxiety can come for the morrow-but I know God has a plan for my life. Lord, I ask for more blessings ... and I want you to be in my heart all my days..!

" I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Jesus Christ" Philippians 3: 14

" If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him"

Thank God for such a promise- I need wisdom Lord- more and more each day of my life as I grow .... I find myself needing guidance to make decisions in my life- to set priorities right and to live a life by You...

Praises to you each day for your grace and mercies !=)

The feeling of true love...

2005-11-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

My deep love for the man of my life.. unbelievable...!!!A prayer come true..
I can't believe that it happened.. and I can only say it was God's plan.. HE told me it would take a year- and yes it did!! I have waited for a year for it to happen...hahaha...
And i must say that my life is so filled with love..!!! Chevyn.. I am in love with you....

Yes- so God has been giving me "life and life more abundantly"- He is truly my strength and stronghold when it comes to being all weak... Well, I cannot praise His name more..!!! The past weeks messages at NC has really touched my heart..I really enjoy the services there..In due time we be attending the caregroup...!:) Would be praying for Angeline to stay strong, Rigan,Joel, Amy, and some others..hahaha:)) They are such great church pals...!! Thank God for great pals.... Makes life so much more meaningful...!:)

So I am going to be going into the exam period..yes stress..but I know that God is going to be with me.. and being in love helps cause I am ever so motivated to work harder..and be responsible for a family ..hahaha ok.. so I'm really thinking of having a lovely family..hahah!:)

Well- will write more in due time- I feel the urge to update those who sign in here.. :)

Here's cheers to all my great pals- and God bless all!!

Love you and you and you!....
Hugs..**

My prayer answered!;)

2005-09-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

God has actually answered a personal prayer of mine-and that is only known between God and I-would like to say how much I wanna praise God! It has been bugging me to write it down and to share it ... Thing is- I am so blessed..not question about it. The message at NC yesterday was so clear and concise- It spoke about Shalom- the covenant of peace. I am thankful for such a covenant-that I know I will have peace, prosperity and good health in my heavenly Father...!

So someone told me that I am always very :) in here.. but it's true- I don't like to be tied down or unhappy over little things.. Things might not always work out- but hey- what's the point of being unhappy!??

John 14:27- Peace I leave with you , My peace I give you, not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

I will try to meditate on this that I will let not my heart be troubled in such troubled times we live in....

I still wanna say how happy I am to find that gem of my life!:)

Into my 5th week!!

2005-09-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

Time flies when I'm really getting into the heat of studying... The question is- would I be better of doing something else???? The pasture over on the other side always seem greener. But sometimes-I'm always very glad to have lovely friends who are so sincere...:) I mean.. can I get them when I start working??? I'm quite skeptical. But then again- I believe that being blessed is our inheritance!!!!

OH so I'm totally exhausted from having really long days for the whole week. I did not know that I could stretch myself like that! Cycling in the morning with Gab was refreshing, and then project work with Jerel and Li Xia was productive- and lastly meeting up with Angel and Joel at Harbour front was quite fun too- we went to the sports sale and then later went to eat at Noodle house- the soup dinner felt good...and yes- Joel showed all the lovely pix of his Hanoi trip- hmm.. I would love to visit the place- after all I have never been there - and it is closeby!:))

Well- I'm listening to the CD-Cross of City Harvest now as I am writing. It is a great CD. Thank God for making me such a +ve influence on the non-believers and backsliders. I hope to win the lost for God... and would really need his annointing on my life. Pls Lord- I pray for Chevyn, Joel and Sissi- I hope they would be won back..:)

Okie dokie.. will go to Lala land now..and am going to smile-as I had a great week..Looking forward to a power pack weekend..!:) praise God !:))

Lovely Sunday!

2005-09-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

Woke up to take a jog around the neighborhood today and then meditate on God .. REally made my day!:)

So i worked a little more on AFA-boy is it tough! And then went to the evening service with Angeline and her SGH friends. Lovely bunch!:) Nurses are angels from God I think! And we had fish soup for dinner. Simple and nice!Went to get myself two tank tops and my day ended with Angeline and I talking about BGR stuff all the way home.... WE click so well. I thank God for giving me such a buddy who would be such great company. Love chatting with her and , yeah-shopping..haha

I should really spend more time socializing with friends-makes my student life more exciting-afterall these are the friends we will have through our lives...
But of course we will find them along the way- I think they are God's expression of love...

I am beginning to like looking at kid's clothes-which I don't use to do.. Oh no! Is it a sign?haha...

Anyway-church was good-Pastor spoke about knowing His plan for us-And getting right with God. Yeah- I am still seeking the plan for my life-and He is revealing it to me....as I look to him for guidance..:)

To a blessed week for everyone- yes we gotta work but I shall do it unto the Lord.:)

Job Hunt

2005-09-09T13:12:00.000+08:00

Studying and job hunting can be very exhilerating... well- To think that I would be graduating in half a year's time! I cannot wait....
Studying has become a responsibility to get the As... however, I am finding great motivation since I am enjoying the lessons- Profs make the difference in the lives of students!

So the career talks have been kicked off .. and networking has never been so important to me. However, I'm trying to look at it in a different perspective- God has it all planned out. Afterall, we are blessed-we have an inheritance.
I be responsible to get the work done - and enjoy the process. I do enjoy meeting people from all walks of life and to find out about what goes on ...
Although I do have some buddies who would be such a great encouragement during this times-family and friends- it makes it all the better.

My weekends would include a BBQ tonight- some catching up with best pals such as Angel and her mates at SGH-and also getting my body moving! I am having my PC test next monday! So lots of stuff lined up- ultimately I am glad I'm getting busy-lazing around isn't too good for the brain and body..haha

I tend to speak my mind- and am not afraid of being laughed at- one eg. was when I asked :" So,what is not so good about your company" at yesterday's career talk- everyone laughed but I did not expect that to come out from me-shocked me! But yeah, at least it made everyone know me after that-which wasn't that bad..haha!

Ok thanking God for His faithfulness in my life-
"A merry heart does good like medicine, But a broken spirit dries up the bones"
Proverbs 17:22

To be always happy and merry!:)

Monday blues blown away.....:))

2005-09-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

I spent the entire day-.. getting to know people.. having coffee...:)
SO BP is quite fun- or rather a revision of Maths C. Class was pretty ok... spoke up and participated a little to keep myself awake. I just somehow love to speak... Hmm... haha!

Ok so I had dinner with Gab-and it was a nice sharing time- I mean.. I do enjoy just a good time with a company of a great friend. It's amazing how we could just click. I thank God for him...:) I am quite sure he would be such a blessing to many around him.

And so God has been reminding me about certain things of my life. He is such a faithful God. He has brought such "angels" into my life.. it's really cool how he works. He gives me the energy to keep on going-the motivation to excel.:)

I am thankful once again for really patient parents who would give me their 2cents worth of thoughts whenever I confide in them. I should say that worth more than just 2 cents. I feel very blessed with such parents- and would never trade them for anything...:) I am so motivated to work harder especially when my Dad has shared about his life's experience. He did go through a harder time-and that has caused him to be more motivated!

My pillar of strength-the Lord Jesus- I cannot deny it...:P!

2005-09-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

Work friends...:)

2005-09-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

The view from where I worked...:)

2005-09-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

Reminds you of a show???:) Madagascar!?hahah

2005-09-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

Bringing little rascals to the Science Centre...

My anxiety

2005-09-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

So I'm anxious about my future-and what it holds-
Yes- so I was told that I have what it takes for a career woman-but what would God's plan be?? Would that be what he wants for me? If so, I'm so sure I'll have His divine favor upon me- and I thank God for such a favor!

I spent quality time with my parents today- and talked about my career choices to family life- what loving parents I have. They would share with me about what they think-and yes- truly words of wisdom. I love them!:) They inspire me to excel in whatever I do. I know that whatever it is, I hope to achieve success for the best. And that would be to have the funds to build up a family-and to help those that are in need- yes altrustic it may sound-but those are the values that have been passed to me. The values that make one find meaning in working so hard each day!:)

So I still am trying to start out that engine for work-was a little slow at class this morning and someone told me I looked tired-Oh well-so I was sick-but now I'm feeling much stronger- And I'm so sure I would be stronger as the days go by-just need to get that fire going inside me.:) I have been distracted by too many things-let me get my focus right now.

And yes- I will not be anxious for tomorrow because God takes care of my tomorrow. I do whatever I can to make things work out-but whatever it is-I do not hold tomorrow-and that is really not my worry.:)Thank God I do not!

Philippians 4: 6" Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God"

Airport Goodbyes

2005-09-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

Just got back from the airport-saying goodbye isn't too easy-especially if you don't know when woudl be the next time you meet them again!

So Sunil would be back to London and Amy would be going to Vienna- I miss them both. Learning Golf with Sunil was fun. He made me feel I had a higher standard to match up to! :) Well, at least I think I had a good golf mate. But for now, I would just drag anybody to come watch me play. He was a good companion. Amy is my church mate-and boy is she on fire for God. She inspires me to read more of the Bible and yes- I thank God for her! So now I 'll go buzz more other people to go NC with me!:) As you can see I don't really like doing things on my own. It's amazing how I do it sometimes....although I would always prefer to have company!

Work has never been so taxing-have a GMAT in a month's time and CFA level 1 in Dec! I try my best to do as much reading as possible-and I feel the sudden presssure to get my GPA to the first class level! OH God- Please give it to me! :)Yes, I have to work for that too, if not "no pain no gain!"Still, it isn't too painful- I try to enjoy the process- although I have sudden urges to go and party!

I miss blogging my life away here- so I would do so more regularly now that I'm back at school. I tend to have less of a private life when I'm at the workplace. Till the day I join the workforce, I would always treasure my student life. And I am going to make the most out of it- ...

I thank God for Daddy giving me the verse 2 Peter 1: 5
I would try to live by that- and be always good, kind, and happy!:)
My simple motto in life....

My Desire...

2005-08-26T12:52:00.000+08:00

My Desire is to be satisfied...

HOw can one be satisfied???

Can one drink one's sorrows away?? No- they would still be there-
and too much drink is not encouraged in God's word...

And how about getting rich? Can one be satisfied? Would you ever be happy with what you have now? When would the quest of fame and money ever end?

The job hunt now can lead one to be aiming for the top jobs-however-would that be just succumbing to society's pressures? Afterall, I live in a elitist society-what we want is to secure a really high paying job at the end of it all-

The undermining of the quest of knowledge cannot be masked by all these desires. The ultimate desire is to have great satisfaction in life-and only God can give that- What is His soveriegn plan for my life?

Abba Father knows best-He watches over me...

My Final Year!

2005-08-26T02:07:00.000+08:00

So classes have started-and I have to start the engine of working and reading-
I am happy to be back to school - work life would be the rest of my life-so I don't need to rush into it! Am thankful for great parents who have been providing for me all this while!:) Thank God for them!:)

SO I have been having good family times at Bintan Club med last weekend. Now I do have a tan and feel quite relaxed. Golf lessons with Sunil has been quite fun as well- it really requires alot of discipline to get it right!:) I hope I can find a golf partner after Sunil leaves.... it's so hard to find a mate that do sport with me....hahaha!

And now I have many exams in store for me, the biz set up and my mission to get a good job when I graduate. So all is a bumpy ride-and the only person who would never fail me would be God- He never fails..always faithful-!

Today I just slept alot and went out with Angeline and Gabriel. IT's so fun to just chill with friends who are true...:) I thank God for such friends who bring such joy to my life. Makes me feel all warm inside.

And though I have left Fortis-I have a feeling I would still keep in touch with them and see them one day- it was indeed such a learning experience. It amazes me how warm people were there. I actually felt at home-wasn't a drag to go to work at all!Well, I sure hope I land a job that I truly like going to each day-and enjoy it while I'm slogging...

So much for now- I am looking forward to the weekend of fun and excitement...

Beautiful days!!!:)

2005-08-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

My God is so beautiful! He makes all things beautiful in His time-
Recently-he has brought so many people into my life that have become blessings to me! You know who you are guys!:)
I am so blessed to have people who truly care for me just like my Abba Father does- but Yes I know each time I go to NC_I can feel His great love for me.

Sunday service was great- God spoke to me about His grace. Sissi came to Church and I hope she was touched. I am praying that she finds Jesus real in her heart and have a closer relationship with him. Amen.
Thank God for friends like Amy too who is going to be baptized! Wow- God , you answered my prayer!!!!

Yes- I am praying for several others to be saved now-and hopefully I can influence them. God favor be upon me as I shine the light for Him. I am not perfect-and I do sin-but God is ever faithful and just to forgive my sins. And each time I go to Him, I feel so rejuvenated. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

So my love life isn't that exciting-but who cares- I know the right one will come one day!..hahah! Well- a friend just told me that his father actually think I would make a good wife-wow...how does he know that???? He did not speak to me that much..hahah.. but then.. it's always good to know..hahah *ok so I'm thickskinned* but then, I do hope to be that- I mean I see my mum being a good one-and my Dad is dee best father in the whole universe..haha!:)

Ok- I should go take some rest for the long day ahead- I wld be having my last intern week!! I am so amazed at how many people has spoken to me!! They all are so sincere in sharing their experience with me!! I thank God for such an experience!Amen

Seeee FOod

2005-08-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

I kind of love to eat now-it's so wierd... I don't use to like to eat so much. Today-we had crabs and shell fish!:) My fav!!!! Lovely ma ma went to buy chilli crabs!! Made my day...

I had a good day at GSLA-even though I only was asked to do some research work at the end of the day. The big boss just came back from HK. I would so need to learn Cantonese. It is a working language in Asia! So now I really have to speak more to my grandparents.:)haha- Not that I do not like to speak with them. It always warms my heart when my grandpa speaks to me. He is such a brilliant guy- I really love him! And grandpa cooks so well.. I would want to be like her one day! So it isn't such a condusive environment to cook in this climate-however, the open air stove makes it more hygenic for the dining area.

Nothing beats family chats-we just switch from one topic to another-and that makes it all so cool that we can talk about almost anything!:) Ma won't be talking to much-she is more a listener. And Daddy can get pretty emotional-Shing would dominate the conversation most of the time-and I try to strike a balance.

So I am doing a lot of catching up with friends each week now. Holidays are always sweet when I catch up with the friends I have- Thank God for such people. :) I'm missing having my other half-but then.. God is always in my heart-and it's warm enough to know that He loves me all the time.

I am so thankful for really warm and sincere friends at the workplace. I know in reality we do not have many friends at the workplace if it is truly competitive. However, it seems like the workplace is a dream come true- a warm and friendly environment. What more can one ask?

I'm challenged to keep up to times-and to be focused on God. THe balance is hard to keep when one sinks into the world of Finance.

"Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you"

NC has been a refreshing experience. IT helps me to be rooted in His Word.:)

Business

2005-08-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

Amid the business-I shall blog a little-
So I have been rotated around and now am at GSLA-Global securities Lending and Arbitrage-very interesting!!:) I actually am mentally stimulated-and in a good way-:)
Yes- so I am inspired to read up more about equities;) I guess this is the area where I should venture-Finance. Then- I would need God's help with the talent part. IT is afterall, I believe 70% skill. This is shared by one of the dealers.

I am spending my weeekends in M'sia and really chilling after work. I guess work life balance is very important , otherwise it can be a bore.!!
God has to be my focus- I cannot lose it. I am trying to live up to the life of being His child.-the temple of the Holy Spirit!:)

I shall say I have been of good conduct so far:)haha. I love Jesus and I know He loves me. John 3:16.

Despite my business, i shall put my eyes on Him.

MAny days

2005-07-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yes- so I have not been posting- I nearly forgot my password!!!hahah

So many things have been happening- especially at the workplace-
So far I have been meeting all sorts of people-been rotated to accounts deparment and they practically sit down to give me a whole run through of what they do. I learn every day and even though I try to fight away whatever fatigue of worklife--I can say I have a good work life balance-I meet my friends after work!

So I would like to thank God for giving me so many opportunities to build myself up. It's easy to neglect him in the business of life-however-I choose not to. I choose to influence others for God-God help me!:)

So I have been having overseas trips- last weekend to Melaka with my parents and bro- it was pretty cool time of bonding! Then this weekend to KL with Sissi, sunil and Will. I am excited about travelling with friends!!

Next - I hope to go to Bali or Bintan for some chill out session- It's good to unwind over the weekends. Thank God for weekday services to recharge the soul too!:)

A more detailed entry next time- am catching up with more ppl on msn!!
I really miss blogging....

Body is weak but spirits are high!

2005-07-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

.. so the mon blues are setting in and the body is tired after a whole day of going out with friends!!!:) YEs-the biz meeting was good. I am so sure the biz will spark off soon with the 3 of us being so Onz!

Yes-I'm very excited about learning new stuff at the office. In fact-I be challenged esp when PC is not around. IT makes me go out of my comfort zone. And I need to be used to that. Nothing is for certain in this world! Put our hope and trust only in Abba, Father!:)

I just got home but I refuse to just hit the pillow because I wanted to do some stuff-talking to Esther and catching up a little on the phone -and check mails etc. So I am hoping to finish the book- " market wizard" I plan to finish by this weekend but I guess catching up with friends was more fulfilling. So I'm not that much of a bookworm-even though I hope to be one. Oh yes-I really need to get that GMAT thing going and the application!!

So many things to accomplish by this week:

Phase 1: Biz plan
Start study of GMAT
Essay for Grad school application
Read up 2 finance books
Catch up with pals

So I'm all geared to do all that and am going to put God first at the same time. Yes-I cannot lose focus on God cause if we do so, "all things would be added unto you"-that's in the Bible. How cool is that. Yes-I shall have to lay my treasures in heaven. Let me not lose that focus. I love to sing his praises-NC was awesome today-Loved the worship and message! Angeline,Amy and Rigan were such great church pals. And best part was the message was on the finished work-to remind me of the Covenant. My first love-never to forsake it.:)

Market wizards

2005-07-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

PC brought me to One fullerton-Jap today-wow he is such a great guy-I mean very personable. Makes a good teacher and mentor. I'm quite inspired by him. I guess market wizards like Warren Buffet was also guided by market mentors. He was lucky-he had one of the top sellers of books as his guide. How I wish...
Anyway- I notice that nobody is leaving comments.I'm pretty happy about it -so I can really write anything I want without many viewers pressing on me. It makes it easier for me to reflect. Not that I want to say anything bad-I'm usually critical for my own good!

So eating with PC was interesting. He reminded me of the turtle of Finding Nemo-ok so it's really bad of me-but it always make me laugh to think of it! And He told me so many stuff and asked me even personal questions about my love life-but it was ok for me to share with him. He is like a mentor to me. Really nice guy!Adviced me to go towards sales-side-better for me. Well, we'll see if I get the job!

Well, I am happy to have dinner with J.Chai and William. They are quite fun people to talk to. Tomorrow I watch Fantastic 4 with J.Chai-and that was to make up for the lunch today-haha! But then... it would be fun to watch a cartoon. I hope it isn't too intense. I like to relax over the weekend! It' pretty important for one to relax when one unwinds after a long week's work. The aim of life sets in even esp. when the work becomes heavy and the body is weak. What are we all driving at? More $$? When is the limit? Why do people work to get more $$?? To drive a flashy car?

Gosh-so I was asked questions like would I go for a guy with a flashy car? Hmm... so far I have not sat in one-but would I really marry a guy for his car?? What if he has stolen it?Haha! Oh- so many guys have been trying to pair me up with a really cute doctor and so on, but are they believers ? So what if he is super drop dead stunning dude-and he has no character? Worse still-he doesn't believe there is a God and don't follow his statues-Bible.. how do we have common ground? So many times non-christians find it hard to gel with christians-it's not that we despise them, but simply we cannot be 'unequally yoked'-there are repurcussions when two becomes one. It just don't go. But then, being friends and seriously dating is a 2 different thing.

Alright-so I'm blabbering-I like to do that sometimes after an interesting day at work. My learning curve is very steep-I'm thankful for such an experience.:)

Bomb blasts

2005-07-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

My goodness- I left the office today with bad news. Bomb blasts in London. So it is sad to know that people are killed. Life is short. We got to be fully aware of where we are going next when this life is over. My hope and glory-Christ Jesus.
It made me see how the market can move with such news. The euro rose up more than a 100 points. 1 buck can fetch 10000 just like that! It was amazing to watch the dealers frantically buying and selling , changing their positions. Thinking it through their heads what is going on. I admire PC-he can analyze it all in his head pretty well keeping a calm collected disposition. Ray is a slightly exasperated one and so is Tony. Richard is pretty cool about it and for the money markets-Michael and Colette were pretty quiet and absorbing the news with quick actions. For me, I was awe-struck by it all. I was worried first for my brother who works in Central London. I called Mum up to ask her if my brother was ok. Then she called Kev to check if he was at his office. Phew, he was ok. Thank God. He could have been on the bus that blew up! My heart was racing- half anxious for my brother's safety and half excited about how the market could turn. I was 'lucky' to have seen the market turn so quickly and the traders were questioning such a move. The Swiss franc went up as it was a haven and people sold USD so quickly. People were in chaos. Everyone were rushing about in London hoping to catch the next flight out of there. It made my day an unforgettable one!

To think I was suppose to be on MC. haha! I would have like to play back the whole scene in the dealing room once again. I actually felt adrenalin rush when the decisions had to be quick as to whether to buy or sell. The bottom line is to buy low and sell high. Question is where is the high and where is the low! It's hard to tell when the market turns at such an event. It was complete chaos. Some traders were just sitting around watching the sky!

Oh I'm quite happy to come home to a family dinner and chat about it. Dinner at home is always great with lively conversations . I did not want to leave the dinner table. I had to eventually to wash my cut. It's still open.. eeww..okok..
anyway, I'm in chill mood now and just reflecting upon my day. Many questions remain on my mind- but at the end of it all-I am thankful for God's protection upon my family. No money can buy the peace I feel in my heart when I sleep tonight.:)

A Beautiful Day

2005-07-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

Beautiful because I woke up with the swell down..haha!:) WEll, everyday is a beautiful day as long as I have God in my heart. My prayer is that I will be closer to him and be so dependent on Him. Well, you may say I"m dependent on antibiotics but still.. they can choose not to work-only God works I believe.

Why am I so religious-one may ask? Well, because when you found a really great friend -you would be excited. He somehow talks to me everyday , just that I have to tune my spiritual ear to hear what he has to say.

So what is the agenda for today-get in tuned with world news and then decide which uni I would like to apply to for masters and start my essay! Bumming days are over... I can't believe I'm just sleeping past two days... it can become a blur. Angeline and I have plans to go to the gym and work out those fats. What a motivation!

So I might well go back to work tomorrow even though I have one day MC. I'm excited about it - to meet those dealers and talk with them. I just hope they don't think I'm such a lazy bummer! But that could be true..just that I'm guilt stricken for taking so many days off! I feel as if tomorrow is my 1st day again. I got all warmed up and now I got to do that all over again. Sheep..Well, the process taught me alot lah! haha!

Romans 8:1 - " There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh , but according to the Spirit."

It's cool to know that we can walk with such confidence that we would not be condemned. Then why feel the stress?? God is in charge. When sick-God is our healer. When hurt-God is our comforter. When depressed-God gives us joy for mourning. When weak-God is our strength. He is my everything. Can't believe how foolish can we be when all our answers is in Him.

Free Time

2005-07-05T21:08:00.000+08:00

So what do you do when you have lots of time at hand????

1. I talk to almost everyone-send out mails to say hello to people I have not been talking. It feels so good to hear that they are all doing well. :)

2. Catch up on beauty sleep. Slept so much I think my cheeks get so rosy when I wake up. And it's funny , but my skin gets better when I sleep.:) I am in such a good mood!

3. Read. Read and read. I am going to catch up on my Bible and news. And perhaps books on trading to educate myself on what a trader does. HOw can one be a successful trader etc. (But really, success is a favor of God!)

4. Spend time with family. I love it when my Dad just comes into my room and talks to me about almost anything under the sun.:) Yah, he is such a family guy. Would love to have someone like that.!:)(God, this is such a big hint!!ahhah)

5. Decide on what to do about my future. This includes reflection of the past and what could be done to improve the present. How can I improve my physical, mental, social and spiritual well being? The last is by far the most important. (It's evident in my 4 day MC!)

So I spoke to my best buddy-Angeline. She is such a blessing to me. She hangs out with me and even want to play tennis with me. Weiling bought strawberries to 'cheer me up'. Yes-it did cheer me up. Sweet friends-God's gifts from heaven. It makes me feel so great even though I am almost limping around with a bursting sausage as a foot! haha!

So I should be heading to bed. The double dosage of antibiotics is making me a little dizzy. I thank God for His healing-my leg should really be normal tomorrow. And I am looking forward to going back to the office. 3 days is long.. I hope the people won't forget me.haha! I actually miss work..it's funny-esp PC has been so nice to me and he talks to me about trading almost everyday! What an inspiration...!

" For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out " Abba Father". Romans 8: 15.

Yes- we call him abba father. He is my Daddy. I am so thankful for such a loving Daddy who is always with me. I woke up with such fear this morning that I will end up in the hospital-as one of the doc I consulted actually said that I might have to spend 3 days in there for a drip. It gave me the scares and I woke up at 3am. However, I prayed and the fear went away when I got up to walk around my room. Thank God for such a miracle. He is really my Daddy,Father.

Sometimes, God just brings a stand-still in my life to remind me of His goodness in my life.I'm all ready for work on Thurs.:)

Relaxation & Reflection

2005-07-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

I'm so relaxed now. THank God for such a holiday!:) So it's my school holidays-and I'm spending it at Raffles Place. He knows that I needed some breather to gather myself together and be back on track! Doc gave me power jab yesterday-the swell has gone down and my spirits are higher than usual. I'm just going to have more time to reflect upon my life-what to do next?? Should I go do my masters in finance or should I just go for the workforce!?

Taking the Step of Faith

2005-07-04T17:28:00.000+08:00

So I have been complacent perhaps and not taking steps of faith . God is testing me right now with the swollen feet and doc giving me jabs and prescribing 2 antibiotics. I appealled to my friends to pray for me because I know that God's heart could be moved. I have been given 3 days of medical leave to stay home to re-think my walk with the Lord and to pray like never before.

I have to change. I haven't been exercising as before and my faith has been affected with the new direction. IT's time to rebuilt my faith and trust in the Lord to provide for all my needs. Sunday service was a step of faith. I went and the pain left me during the service, only to come back after but I did not take God's advice to go home-instead I went about and it got worse. So Lesson #1- to always hear and obey God because He knows what is best for us.

I am thankful for friends who are caring. Alot of them are well aware of my situation and I asked them to pray. I believe in a miracle and I trust that God is merciful to hear my cry. So I am going to testify of His Great Goodness even right now because I believe that He has healed me. "By His stripes I am healed"-it's the past tense. He has borne my sins on the cross-it is the Finished Work of Christ Jesus. I don't want to go back on my sinful ways. Lord, I will want to keep the temple of the Holy Spirit pure and healthy-Lesson #2.

So I have been neglecting the Word of God and this MC has given me the chance to read it all 3 full days. To be confined in my room as I can't walk and be totally immersed with the Word of God. There is a special blessing for those who read HIs word. And There is also a special blessing for churches that pray for Isreal-thus the tremendous blessing on NC-I'm amazed at how true it is!-Lesson #3.

My bro has sent me to the doc. Blood is thicker than water. I thank God for such a brother, and isn't the timing perfect? My parents are out of town and he has just came back from London only to send me to the doc. I can hardly put my feet down. But I am claiming on the healing power of the Blood of Jesus Christ . Amen.

So I shall proceed to do my quiet time with the Lord Jesus. I thank Him for HIs faithfulness in my life. I wiill testify of HIs goodness at the office-I'm so sure of that. Amen

Sores all over.. but still :)

2005-07-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

The sores on my hand would not stop me from blogging my life. :)
God has been faithful. HE has caused me to find favor at the workplace. Somehow, the dealers were having an exceptional good month and so they started talking. And throught those conversations, I began to feel more comfortable and welcomed. Most importantly, I learnt more about what it takes to be a dealer.

Saying our goodbyes to the interns was difficult. That leaves me to be the last standing one because I'm working till the last day of my holidays. But I guess that is the most productive thing I could do. But I would take this opportunity to get to know as many people as possible.

Coming back to those dreadful sores-I also have them on my feet-and it's swollen. Oh God please heal me! I feel a little like Job-only like 5% of his suffering perhaps. Well, I'll see what the doc has to say tomorrow.

Oh the love of Jesus
Oh the love of Jesus
Oh the love of Jesus
It washes white as snow

Bible says His blood cleanses us from all unrighteousness. I'm a sinner. I need His blo0d to wash me . I know that 'by His stripes we are healed'. I believe I be healed from all sickness. And be healed from all hurts and pains.:)

Ok BS on Friday was pretty cool-talked about us being blessed-our inheritance from God. I thank God for reminding me once again that I'm blessed. It makes me know that I'm a precious child of God.

One more day to the weekend is over-I am looking forward to NC tomorrow. Lord may the pain go away and yah-forgive me of all my sins.

Working Life

2005-06-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

So I have a foretaste of what a dealer's life is like. It's an opportunity I used to long for when I was having an internship last year. How God works-He grants it to me when I was planning my internship this year. Perfect timing-right after my missions. :) Well, although I wanted to take the time to relax, I was up and going to Raffles where the hustle and bustle of the city is! I should say God has brought really great people into my life. They are so warm and sincere-it's hard to believe it's true. It's still a male dominated department. Dealing and trading need men who want to make fast decisions and feel the power that they are in control-the irony is that we are all at the mercy of the market. It's a cruel world out there-we just want to "kill" each other for survival. But God promises everlasting hope in Him. That gives me so much comfort.

So it is a challenge for me to set myself apart from the rest and be focused on God-to encourage those around me to seek God . And it is my life they are looking at.It becomes a living testimony and I pray that I would be a shining light in the workplace. God please help me to be holy. Yes-a few drinks won't hurt but it should not get to the drunkard stage. After all, a little wine is good for health -they say. Bible tells us wine is perversed if it leads to drunkness. So I aim never to drink till I'm tipsy-it's just not really a wise thing. So for tomorrow I shall just join them for some drinks and get to know more people. For now, I am so happy to meet really fun people in the dealing room. And I hope to learn the ropes from those around me. I learn so much today already- fx trading /bonds etc.

I aim to get some books over the weekend to read up on technical analysis. And this has sparked me to see it applied in real life. I could relate to stoch-slow and double low etc. That was partly due to the fact that I did a research paper on technical analysis. So I had a chat with the dealer beside me on why he wanted to be one. He almost told me his whole life story. Well, it is a big bucks they are making and I really don't know if that is really what I should be doing. So many people are eyeing for that job!

So the plans of God-to influence those around me to shine His Glory. I really hope I am a blessing to those around me. This week has been quite an exciting week with mostly meetings of friends after work. And despite being busy-I'll talk to my dear Friend up there and tell him that I love him.:)

Excitement!

2005-06-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

First I need to praise God for Amy's salvation. I have been praying hard for her. I thank God that she has made the choice!! Wow-Amy if you are reading this- I just want to say a big congratulations and welcome to God's family. I'm so challenged to influence many to God's kingdom. Sometimes, I feel the urge to just grab a mike and start preaching the word of God. It's just so cool to watch people turn their lives to the living God-especially my friends and loved ones. Ok so I will make a new resolution to pray for lost souls.

Well, so i'm settling pretty well now and am all geared in performing well for work tomorrow. My 1st day! Boy am I excited. New friends, environment everything. Would be a good chance to learn about what I would like to do with my career. Well, as God leads, I pray for His shining light to shine forth. I want to be a good testimony. Yes, I will work hard and be responsible for it is my testimony too! So that is going to be my resolution for the internship. My no.2 internship and I hope it would be a spirit led one?:) For one, God has surely given me this one to have start just right after missions. He is giving me such strength and good health for it too. And a christian friend is in there too! Perfect!

God is so real to me this week. He has given me specific directions and I thank God for that. He is leading me and guiding me. Thank God for being so faithful time and time again. There is no reason for me to doubt. Message today at church by Dwayne is to praise God in the dumps. Yes-to praise Him despite our troubles. Well, it is beyond us to give thanks when things are turning out right but, indeed I am challenged to thank God for everything-good or bad. It gives life a different turn. It gives us an added confidence in the will and plan of the Lord Jesus.It is what it takes to truly trust in the Lord.

So I prob be moving onto NC, and that is what God is leading. My prayer is that my service to him would be of double annointing. And as Dad as rightly put it, prayer is a power tool. IT brings the annointing. IT moves the heart of God. And I want to know the heart of God. That is my desire. So what if other people want to say hurtful things; so what if people do not want to care; my God is greater than all these. "I will fear not what man can do to me" God promises that we are more than conquerors, throught Jesus Christ our Lord. So what can defeat me?

Well, many people are looking to activities in a church. Dance etc. But the Word of God has to be preached through the workings of the Holy Spirit. I don't believe in copying a message wholesale if u think that is going to bless the poeple. I believe our God is a God of freshness. He speaks directly to the needs of the people-and it's mostly very accurate in timing. It is for us to seek God so fervently that we know exactly what God is speaking. not just say some general thing that is for everyone. Ok.. so I have been through times when I begin to critic certain things I see in a church-well they are lessons to be learnt. No one is perfect. We learn as we go by. We love each other as much as we love ourselves. It's my prayer to see the church built up and that really comes through great leadership, fervent prayer and sincere hearts. God looks at the hearts. I'm challenged to keep my heart in tuned with God's. Oh help me!

So much for now. I shall turn in and be alert for tomorrow. Loving all my friends and family. And yes, kudos to my heavenly Father who is always there for me.:)

Orphans and Widows

2005-06-26T00:35:00.000+08:00

" Pure and undefiled religion before God and the Father is this: To visit orphans , and widows in their trouble, and to keep oneself unspotted from the world" James 1: 27.

Indeed,I'm much encouraged by the word, as I have done just that. I can testify with great confidence that my God is such a great God of Love. He loves the orphans and widows and He has given me a taste of what His love means.

I'm glad I've sorting my thoughts out after the camp and missions. God has a great plan and purpose for my life. I know it and believe that I'm called. I would be seeking new pastures over the next few weeks and I will rely on God to be my Shepherd. I always want to be a living testimony for him. That is my goal. I seek His annointing in my life and that comes through prayer and supplication.
Indeed, he has set me free from the strongholds.I seek to hear His voice!

Psalsm 23:The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want, He makes me to lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness, For His name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadw of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff , they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies, You anoint my head with oil, my cup runs over, surely goodness and mercy shall follow me , all the days of my life; And I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.

Why should one doubt that there is a living God when the reality of God is present in the very dawning of day-the creation of the Universe did not just come to pass-it's God's power and glory evident in our very being. So why should we place our hearts in earthy things when they will pass away. All things that are not of God will pass away. It will vanish and why should we pursue it till the very last breath we take? Such Vanity. We brush it aside each day of our lives not knowing that we are sucked into the very trap of worldy cares. WE lay our treasures on earth and would not be able to take them with us when we die. So lay our treasures in heaven, for when we die, we will be judged. It's wisdom I seek now. Peace in the heart , which cannot be sought after in the world. Only perfect love casteth out fear!

2005-06-25T17:17:00.000+08:00

what a sweet sight!:)

2005-06-25T17:16:00.000+08:00

some of us!!

2005-06-22T23:40:00.001+08:00

Philippines

2005-06-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

I actually rode on this!:)

2005-06-22T23:38:00.000+08:00

all of us at the airport!!

Missions Fever!

2005-06-21T12:07:00.000+08:00

So I arrived back home yesterday feeling the heat of the missions. It has burned my desire for the lost. It has revived me even more. I did not sleep the whole night as our flight was at 3am. Cheap flights=wierd timings. But it was a good flight-no turbulence. Praise God for answering my prayer. He is such a great God.:)

My time at Cebu City , Philippines has been a turning point of my life. I have been transformed with the renewing of my mind and spirit. God has given me an added desire and hunger for souls. I have been used to minister the people despite my doubts of my ability. Even though I was not given the opportunity to preach God's word , but God used me in personal minstery. He used me to speak to people and be sensitive to their needs.

Day 1- Sunday-We settled into our new "home" at the beautiful hilltop "palace" at Teen Challenge. I was amazed at the beauty of the place. I met my first friends at TC and they were all lovely teenager girls. They were so sweet looking and I loved them immediately. We had a time of singing and dancing. We did our dance and the kids too. Dinner was lovely and they served us. I was so amazed at their servanthood. Totally awe struck I slept with a wave of excitement over me. I thanked God for giving me such a great start for an adventure not to be forgotten.

Day 2- Mon- We woke up early and had devotion. The girls and guys were seperated. I could sense a great desire in the hearts to worship God. The word of encouragement was given and it reinstated that women do have a purpose for their lives. Somehow, the woman with a young child was always crying. She was planning to leave TC but I had not a clue until later. She has chosen to walk away from God's purpose. However, I did pray for her and I did feel the burden.It seemed to my human mind that my prayer was ineffective becasue the next day , she left, but I guess God has been doing a work in her heart and I pray that she will realize that she has to turn back to God. I feel so sad for her little child. Later we had a day of cultural awareness. We went to the cemetry where I had to hold a skull in my hand. (urgh!) There were bones just in bags. My hands grasphed my head with disbelief. And then we walked to where the street children lived. It was a heart breaking sight. It was very poor. Children had little clothes on, were visibly dirty and were under nutritioned. I could see an instant barrier between us and the children, but I chose to love them. God's love welled up in me like a fountain. I felt a strong compulsion to love them and I held them in my hands. They played catching around me and that felt so natural. They were lovely children. And no doubt they were poor, they were laughing and cheerful. That changed my outlook of life instantly.

Day 3-Tues- The day was good as we visted Rhonda church. Even though we had a flat tire, we prayed so much and sang praises that it moved the heart of God. The service was totally amazing. The people actually waited 4 hours for us. And they still were hungry during the service. We all prayed for them and many came under the power of God. After that, I was able to minister to a new comer who was going to Taiwan to become a maid. Thank God for leading me to her to pray for her. She told me she has been touched and will pray to God for guidance. And so I prayed all 2 hours back to TC. I did not want to eat. I just wanted to pray. I had a foretaste of what true fasting and fervent prayer was. Everyone was sleeping in the van but no, I just wanted to speak to the Lord.

Day 4- We had combined devotion. Alison preached about obedience. That was so accurate. I am encouraged by her message as it did speak to me. Her diligence and devotion in preaching God's word has inspired me. We prayed for Vicky and God somehow spoke to me about her problems-giving up her child. And that was quite amazing. God has been so real to me throughout as I yielded wholeheartedly to him. The church camp has revived me and now I can hear his voice even clearer while praying for others. After that, we prepared to feed the children in the night. Having seen the children for the second time, I could recognize some of them. I was part of the control team so I had them form lines to have their hands washed and then served food. They were so quick to learn the dance steps when we did the mass dances. I was all sweaty and hot and thirsty but it did not stop me from loving those kids. I carried one little one and she did not have panties on. That made my heart break. She was so silent and still when I held her in my arms. She must have been only 3 or 4 years of age. The look on her face will not leave my mind.

Day 5- It was rest and relax day. We first had some of the Teen Challenge peeps baptized in the sea. Darryl was also baptized. It moved my heart to know that these people would devote their lives to God after what they have gone through. And yes, we did snorkelling and jet skiing. I capsized the boat 3 times!! The fun made me forget almost everything and I got so tanned after that. :)

Day 6-so we had devotion once more and Ernie shared about being holy. Yes- I felt that was very important for each of us to have our bodies a living sacrifice to God. AFter all it is the temple of the Holy Spirit. The involvment in the local city church was somewhat dissapointing as the people were pretty much activity based and weren't hungry. That was how we felt, but many churches are like that so we cannot just blame them. Instead, we should rethink on how it can be changed and to also pray hard for them. I managed to pray for some and hope that that has touched the heart of God in one way or another.

Day 7- The day of taking the street kids off their streets, bringing them in and loving them. We started out early in the morning. Had two truck loads of kids-close to 80, did the same dances with them and they knew by heart! Made my heart smile!We wore balloons on our heads to entertain them. They certainly loved it. Later, we bathed them, have their hair cut and nails washed. It was a challenge to wash them as their hair were full of "kutu". :) But God's love was strong in me. Thank him for that. AFter , we served them lunch and they ate so much! They practically gobbled down their food. And after lunch, they scrambled to lie down to sleep. They pushed for a space on my lap. One even wanted to put her head on my toes. It was funny to see , and painful as they pressed on both my legs - I had about 8 girls sleeping on my legs, but it was a warm sight. They hardly had a chance to sleep on somebody's lap. I softly stroked their hair as they drifted off to a land w/o worries. Their faces were smiling, and that made me smile too. I also found myself dozing off as I was physically tired. However, before I knew it, naptime was over and the music came on again. Most of the children jumped to their feet and started to dance. I carried them on my shoulders and they loved it. :) Yes, back ache after but I couldn't help but want to see that laugh and little chuckle on their faces.:) It was painful to see them placed back to the streets. Jacob asked cheryl and I to follow the van to have them fetched back. It was then I "chanted" -"Jesus loves me, I love Jesus" and they followed after me. I wanted that to sink into their minds. To know that God loves them no matter how bad things can get. To know that God loves them through us. One girl put her arms around me and called out " Mummy"- my heart broke I wanted to cry. I wanted to do more, but what else can I do!? The kids left the van and ran after it, waving. One called out- "Ate Joy"-and that meant that she took me as family. I left with a burdend heart and fought back tears.

Day 8-We had a sunday service at the Minglanilla church. It was at a basketball court beside a disco pub. And somewhat like an audithorium, full of dances and performances. Well, Dwayne preached about the armour of God-was so powerful but one one lady responded. The worship was great, but somehow, the people were a little hardened. It made me depressed but I knew that the Word would not return void so I was encouraged by that fact. God has taught me to be sensitive to the Holy Spirit. After all, He sees tha heart and not our works. The thanksgiving dinner was hard to swallow. It would be our last meal with the TC people. I miss them quite alot and am still thinking about them. They have been so sincere in their friendships and I treasured that. The kids would always have a smile on their face when they see me. We were asked to serve them their meals and they kept asking me to sit down to eat. I happily served them- they have made me have a different outlook in life. I appreciated all that I have. I love my parents so much more- to know that they have loved me so much in my life. It makes me never to want to get upset because these people have it so much worse. It motivates me to love others as God has loved me. He has loved me with an everlasting love. I thank God for that.

Amen and Praise the Lord for what He has done.:)

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I love Pearl!!!!

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People who saw me grow up!!! Amongst them David-camp commandant for the camp!! Kudos to him!

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My daughters!!:)haha!!!

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My roomie!!!

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My Godma!!!! She rocks!!!!

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My beautiful aunt!!!

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I love Pam Seaward, Jess and my babies!!!

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Welcome to Hawaii!!!! :)

Tired but revived!

2005-06-10T23:54:00.000+08:00

Nothing is going to bring me down. So I had an awesome time at camp-the ministry of Pam Seaward is so strong. I felt the presence of God so strong in all the meetings! God-you are indeed so real in my life. I don't want to leave the meetings. I want to just bask in the presence of God and be annointed. But the theme is to "Empowered to Serve". God is calling us to serve Him. To bring others to the Light-that we might also shine.(Daniel)

I am very disappointed with my B grade in AT but I believe God will change that somehow-I did not feel I would have done badly because I did answer the questions and I knew they were right answers!! Why God-why B? I'm so frustrated with the results-and to think I had this strong feeling that all my grades would be A and I could testify of God's goodness! So that would mean God would be working my way? HE works wonders -I know it and so I would never be discouraged no matter what grades I get. I have done my best-I made so much effort in piecing the notes together- I guess I would have to learn to be contented with what I have-and give thanks in all circumstances! But God-I have just written a mail for grade review-OpenProf Aharony's eyes to my contributions and that he would review my grade-he must have made a mistake somehow..haha!:)

So I'm very exhausted with the long 6 hr long journey, however, I'm refreshed in my spirit! My body is tired but spirit revived! This camp has brought me closer to God and I'm all geared in serving him in ministry in Philippines on Sunday. I'm going to rest now to rejuvenate my physical body so as to have energy for tomorrow.

Thank God for such great friends I have made during the camp! I am so encouraged to hear testimonies and people shared with me many things that God has been doing. I had the opportunity to minister to them and be used by God. Thank you Jesus. I am so in love with you...:)

My prayer are for my other friends who are not saved-you know who you are and those who have backslided-they know who they are!!:)haha! But yeah, I believe in due time God will show them things of Him. I believe right now that God will be working in my life more than before.:)

I thank God for such a beautiful week of worship and seeking God and His spiritual gifts. I appreciate all the encouragement people have given to me. They are like angels!:)Jas-thanks so much for your prayer. I really appreciate it.
And countless people who have said so many impactful words upon my life at the right moment.

I love my mummy for coming to the camp and bunking with me. She is a great roommie, mummy and friend.:) She talks just like an elder sister sometimes.:) And both of us have been greatly revived in our faith. I have spoken to Daddy and we both had a good time of fellowship. I love both my earthly parents and thank my heavenly father for giving me such a lovely family. Praise Him!

My last day at the Bukit Timah Campus

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So I left the campus with fond memories-with great friends who actually brought their cameras! I totally forgot that we were actually having our last day during our AT exam! I must have been mugging too much! Anyway, I don't feel that I am actually leaving the campus. It is a little sad to see the vendors shifting out and the student life dwindling after the end of the normal semester. I really struggle to stay at school when there are so few students around during the modified. But then, I am pretty glad to have found really sincere friendships during my course there.

The campus with its greenary sets a relaxed surrounding despite the stressful student life we live. It becomes like an irony. Or perhaps would one call it a "buffer"? I love to sit outside the Ficus and stare out at the vastness of green tropical plants and flowers and it takes my mind off the workload for a moment. I have sat outside there eating the yummy noodles-which I always order from the friendly aunty " ji si kuay teow" :) Countless peeps have shared that moment with me -just sitting out there talking about everything else except work. I have also eaten with professors-both on campus and outside campus. The friendships I have fostered with Velina, Andrew Lee, Saw Cheng Lim, Lee Pey Woon, Gan Tin Hua have impacted my life in more ways than one. They have inspired me to pursue a higher level in my education. That's why I have chose to do a double. I believe I can fully maximize my undergraduate to expand my learning capacity-and when I hit that Masters-I would be fully equipped with greater expectations.:) And they have revealed to me a certain reality of life- the value system. We do hold value systems that would be carried through life. Many a times we would be overly focused on material things. However, we should also focus on things larger than life-especially to know where we are actually heading. :) Yes-I have grown to know that my hope lies in the Lord Jesus. WHen I find that -I find such great enjoyment to push hard for the Glory of His name. My grades have been improving by leaps -all for His glory. I have found greater focus on a higher calling on my life.

Missions meeting was good today. We were practising the dance for the missions to Philippines. I guess I am growing to know servanthood during this period. God is opening the door for me to further develop myself. I have grown the past few months I have returned from Denmark. I can say He is so faithful to me!:) I am looking forward to seeing what He has instore for me.

For now, I'm going to rest and recharge for tomorrow. Had a great day with Cara-old JC mate of mine. IT was so fun !! AH and tomorrow Amy is coming to church again!:) I'm so excited - I hope she accepts Christ soon!!! Angels will be celebrating in heaven.

So yes-I spoke to my bro over msn. Had so much fun speaking Yoda language with him. We joke so much. :) Miss them both.

Blast away!

2005-06-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

The final paper was a blast-God really helped me with the revision and all the calmness filled my heart. Amazing Grace He has given me. Praise be to God. He has given me such great blessing upon my life. He has also given me a prophesy that has come to pass. I will worship him in my dancing and will affect many people to Christ. Indeed- I am consecrating my life to be effective for Him.

So I did not sing the song today and was rather disappointed. I practised hard and felt I was ready. But due to some person's memory-they forgot to put me up on schedule. So I guess she gave me the reason that I approached the wrong person-but she should have told me earlier! Wah- I was alittle taken aback with such a response. Well, forgive forgive-I will have to forgive.:) Yes- I guess God has placed the song in my heart for a purpose but if I am not mistaken He wanted me to bless the peeps at church with song-ok.. so I feel quite bad not to have approached the right person-Pastor today. I should have informed him and not relied on that person. Ok.. so I guess I am not being too effective and would hope to explore newer grounds-but would that be what God wants me to do? I afterall want to follow His plan for my life! And he tells me to go! Where? NC?

Ok. so God has given me a heart of forgiveness. I used to be unable to accept blunders. I don't respect people who forget or simply don't take keep their word. When you agree-stick by it. If not, tell me early. That is the usual protocol. But people sometimes don't stick by it. They assume it's ok if I give a reason later. But it is not ok if you have planned it all to disrupt someone's agenda/plan. Well, I learn form the experience as I go by.

Ok. So I have such a supportive family-mother who went to P&P today with me. If not perhaps I would have felt pretty alone. I don't know why-but I guess the age gap is pretty different. I would love to hang out with people at my own age. But of course, I love to mentor too. I love mentoring. Alot of people keep asking me how to mature as a christian-well, not that I am saying I am super matured, but I would tell them to keep pressing in. One have to stay strong. And works without God is just works. WE are only doing it with our own human power. And I rather focus on God's work in my life. How I can intercede for people and touch them with my very existence. I am so blessed with friends around me-like today after the paper I went to Crystal Jade with Sheena,Esther,Glendon, Wendy and we had such a great lunch-Tim Sum-my fav!!:) Oh it's such a warm feeling to have with great pals around you. People who would make you feel so at home.:)

I am bloggin and talking on MSN so I think my thoughts aren't very coherent. haha! I am just penning my feelings here. Usually I would really coceptualize it into logical paragraphs!:)

For now-I am pretty refreashed after a good Prayer and Praise session at Calvary. I feel that praying is very important. I touches the heart of God. I saw him sitted upon the throne today and doves were all around-that speaks of God's peace upon the hearts of His people. And I would just proclaim His goodness upon my life. Well-that changed me alot 'cause I didn't get angry at all when they did not request for me to play the song-I felt that I let God down on the blessings for His people. Well, I guess we could work on that one at the camp. :) I believe I would sleep well when I have blessed others. It's funny, when God touches my life- I would want to share the blessings with others. I am happy to see others happy!:) I guess that's how we are made-eventually we become parents-we will see how happy our kids would be when we love them. (haha.. Ok i won't get there 'cause I can write all day about it even though I am not a parent!-my mum inspires me to be one for sure!)

Ok I guess I will stop here for now. I will definitely be penning more of my thoughts now that the exams are over!!! Going to meet cool pals this weekend-I'm so looking forward!:)

Love to my Heavenly Father!:)

From the Mountains to the Valleys!!

2005-06-02T14:25:00.000+08:00

Mountains of readings now that I am cramming everything for tomorrow's LAST paper! hillsongs ringing in my ears.. From the Mountains to the valleys-Hear our singing fill the air!

Many days of staying at home reading has helped gain some rest and prepare myself for the church camp and missions. I'm feeling closer to God and would always pray to Him to be my source of strength and comfort. What would I do without Him? I cannot imagine.

Felt pretty nausal this morning and then I prayed-and God healed me! It's so amazing how I can just recover by sleeping 2 hours straight-and it's a total knock out. God gives rests to the weary.

So spending time chatting with Dad/Mum every night has been something my bros won't be able to enjoy. Mum's actually joining me for movies-so it's cool.
Looking forward to a weekend of fun and excitement-would be meeting Cara for shopping-then the missions-then to City Harvest for Reuben Morgen with Jas and Joel. Sun-will have Amy come to Calvary (yay!) , and then we watch Madagascar with Angeline & Ray and mummy!:) Mon-the start of the M'sia camp with visits to Ostrich farm and KL shopping!:) But most importantly- the refreshing of the Holy Spirit!:) I can't wait for what God has to speak to me and do in my life. He is fanning the flame now.

Lover of my soul, Jesus.

"Finally my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might; Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil" Ephesians 6: 10-11

Amen-He is telling me to be strong as I submit to His directions in my life. Lord, lead me and guide me!

Faithful to the faithfuls!!

2005-06-01T14:26:00.000+08:00

Ok.. so I'm going to post as much as I can now that I know there are some faithful peeps coming here!!! Big hello to everyone!:)Haha!

So Adv Audit was good. Best part was I finished on time and God healed my crammed hand. :)Wrote like one and a half booklets. I could publish a book at the rate I was writing! And I shook Prof Tay's hand to thank her for everything. Yes I can see her devotion to academia.:) And she said : " God bless!" Wow..that touched my heart. I guess she said it loud enough for everyone nearby to hear -speaks about the testimony of her life. I would like more profs like that willing to proclaim their faith and live an upright and Godly life. Well, so she is a mother and did write me a mail when I was ill. :))Sweet.

NOw for the last lap-AT! Yes-I'm going to re-read the book once more. Or rather for the 1st time?! It is such a dry book but now that the heat is on-it makes it all easy!:)

I sang the song below to Ray over the phone and he asked me to join Talentine..hahah!:) well.. I would love to but all they sing is pop songs-so I'm not really liking them. I listen to Hillsongs like everyday!:) And when I listen to them-the pop songs make me feel uncomfortable. I would rather go for jazz and instrumental.:) Makes it so soothing for the soul!:)

My now fav song is "Magnificent" -it really is a proclamation of God's grace. He has set the stars in place, has calm the raging seas that came crashing over me. You who brought the morning light-the hope of all the earth is rest assured in Your great Light. You are Magnificent, Eternally, Wonderful, Glorious-Jesus, no one would ever compare to you Jesus!

So I be hoping to watch Madagascar this weekend with Amy, Ray, Angeline, and MUM!:)Looking forward to that!:) Now back to the books!!:)

Knowing You !!

2005-05-31T12:39:00.000+08:00

I had my 1st paper today-was pretty good I must say. God helped me remember my facts! I made notes and I remember them! Yay! I feel good! Yes-spoke to several people after my exams and they were all smiling. So I guess they are alright too! -so there is Adv Audit tomorrow-I"m pretty confident about it-but I can't be over confident now. I will surrender all to Him and rest in Him.. after the mugging! :)I can testify of His goodness that He gives me peace during my exams! And He prompted me to share the song - Knowing you this coming friday. I will dedicate it specially to the missions team to encourage them to know God as they embark on the adventure!

I typed out the lyrics:

Knowing You (Aspiration and Consecration)
Word and music: Graham Kendrick, 1993
Philippians 3: 7-8

All I once held dear
built my life upon,
all this world reveres
and wars to own.
All I once thought gain
I have counted loss
Spent and worthless now
Compared to this

Now my heart desire
is to know you more
To be found in You
And known as Yours
To possess by faith
What I could not Earn
All surpassing gift of righteousness

Oh to know the power
Of your risen Life
And to know You in your suffering
To become like You in Your death, my Lord
So with You to live and never die

Chorus:
Knowing You
Jesus
Knowing You
There is no greater thing
You’re my all
You’re the best
You’re my joy
My righteousness
And I love you, Lord

Indeed, this song has touched my heart so much -I be practising the song on the piano for Friday. I like playing on the piano now that it is tuned.haha!:)
Hope that God will use me to bless people with the song He has placed in my heart.

So I be listening to more Hillsongs lately as accompaniment to my mugging. It helps to set the mood and serve as a reminder that we serve God through our lives even as students.

Psalms 121: 1-2 " I will lift up my eyes to the hills- From whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth."

Thanks be to God!:)

True to your Heart-98 degrees and Stevie Wonder!

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Don't think so much.. Let your heart decide?

True to your heart
You must be true to your heart
That's when the heavens wil part
And baby, shower you with my love

Open your eyes
Your heart can tell you no lies
And when you are true to your heart
I know it's going to lead you straight to me!

I love this song!!!! Ahaha.. yes, I like someone now but is He what God wants for me??? How can I tell unless God speaks to him too??? Alright, I shall not be thinking of such things during my exams. But I can't help it!!! Ok, so I'm just taking a break off my revision for AMA tomorrow. I am focused , yes I have to focus!!haha

The start of the exam fever!!!

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It's the exam fever and I have mixed feelings about it- excitement and apprehension. It's only human to feel anxious but what is happening is that I don't feel that anxious when I know God is with me.:) Daddy reminded me that the annointing comes to those that pray-just like Daniel-we need to pray and ask God-not just once but we need to be sincere about it.

Just like I"m praying for Amy's salvation. I have to intercede for her for the Holy Spirit to do a work. I am so encouraged when she told me yesterday she bought a new Bible and is going to start the Daily Bread I gave her. I prayed for her almost the entire service when she was sitting with me last Sunday. Oh Lord, How I wish you can also do a work in Ray & Cousin Grace's hearts too! Not forgetting Jason and Ken. I have been praying for Angeline and she is coming back to the Lord-attending NC with me. Oh Lord-please fan the flame for Jesus in their hearts I pray!!!:)

Indeed, God has brought me closer to Him during this exam fever period. It is a time of refreashing and not stress=drain. I will be "more than conquerors through my Lord Jesus Christ"! I claim the victory and will bring Glory to His Name! He is always faithful!

Philippinas 4:6-7" Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus"

Ok Lord my requests is to have all A+s and graduate with a first class!:) How about that??haha!!! Ok I'm thankful for your Faithfulness Father. I love you!

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The bride's brother-Lalalalal!!! We kind of look like we are the waiters of the night!!!

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we really wanted those strawberries!!!

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Stars of the day!!! Pearlyn has been such a great encouragement to me !!! Love her !!!

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MY royal ranger commanders when I was like 8 years of age!!!

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Weiling-the sweetest girl who totally hates conflicts!!:)

Rainy Sunday!!:)

2005-05-29T14:19:00.000+08:00

Yes- so I was in a dilemma to day-to go with my parents to Bethany or Calvary-so I decided the latter. And yes-God knew that I would have loved company so becky appeared and waved to me. That was sweet. We sat together. I loved the message today. Even though the pastor has lost his voice for 13 years-I felt his ministry so strong. And what he said touched my heart deeply. The theme was on captivity. - Jeremiah 29:11 spoke to me once again . It was spoken after the 70 year period of captivity. And God promised them that he has plans to prosper them. How great is He!

So I have spent quite alot of time at church this week-more than the mugging I think! Yes- I trust that God will give me the strength throughout this week to glorify His name. So i went straight back after the service so determined to give my best now. I missed the briefing but I guess it's always not a problem catching up the info from Ali or Weiling- some of the cool pals at church. I know that God is redeeming my time now as I seek to showcase His goodness in my life. I will continually trust in Him.

The wedding!!

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I can't help but write in here- oh-what a celebration !! 800 guests! Was totally overwhelming. Yes- Jessica fetched me home-she is such a wonderful sister. She fetched Alice home too! when I see such a wedding- I feel so much happiness inside of me. It's such a blessing to find somebody who loves the Lord too. How I hope to find someone who truly loves the Lord! We could go to missions together, sing songs together..hahah! Yes-dreaming.

So I am too tired to hit the books but would instead hit the sack. I had a wonderful dinner with the Calvarites. It felt like old times catching up with peeps. Aunt Pearl was sooo sweet to give up her chair for me so that I could sit with the youth- they put me on the adults table! Wah-I must be getting old!!
So alot of old calvarites said hello to me-like HZ's parents! Wah-they still look the same. And PC asked me about whether I would be going to Philippines. Word comes around really fast. :)

I liked the love songs they play over the dinner. I sang along-and I loved the cheese cake right at the end!!! Wah-and the strawberries!! With chocs!! My goodness I loved the desserts!! Ok-so I have a sweet tooth.:)Well, and they gave out honey for us to drink. That was such a great thing to have honey !! It's so healthy! Well-Pearlyn's been such a blessing to me when I was younger-she would write cards to me. That was such an encouragement. She is so humble and her spirit is so sweet. Lyndon is such a lucky guy!:)

Oh well. I'm glad i had such an eventful day. I spoke to Jas over the phone and was able to encourage her with my strong stand that God has it all planned out for us. He makes all things beautiful in His time. Indeed- I am blessed to have so many wonderful friends around me. The old royal rangers commanders were there too! Made me feel so warm to see them once more. Thank you Father for giving me such blessings in my life-can't thank you enough!:)

I'm in love!!!

2005-05-28T13:05:00.000+08:00

Ahaha.. Why am I so distracted from my studies?? Why am I going for worship service almost everyday ?? Yes-I'm in love. I'm in love with the presence of God in my life. He has filled my heart.I am satisfied.

God's voice in revelation is like the sound of many waters! Indeed, I love to sit by the seaside and listen to the waves roll onto shore. That is such a beautiful sound. And if God's voice is indeed beautiful. He spoke to me last night to say that he loves me and that my name is written on the Book of Life! Oh-that is such great comfort. That takes away all fear of death which can be rather tormenting to many. I praise God for the blessings He bring in my life. Amen.

Yesterday's message at Victory Family was like a continuation of what was at NC-it was on the book of Revelations! Now he talks about the multitude praising God! Indeed, I want to be there. The worship yesterday was powerful-it led me to have a glimpse of Heaven. I could hear God speaking to me-saying that He will bless me! God's voice is clearer to me now that I am seeking Him more in my life. He brings me friends who help to build me up too! That is such an incredible encouragement to me.

Yes-I have a couple of hours to mug before going to a wedding that would be from 5 onwards. I woke up late because God granted me such beauty sleep! ANd yes, I had a sudden urge to change the design of my blog-so that I can come more here to pen down how God has blessed me.

"I am the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End" Revelations 1: 8

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That's my cool & handsome Daddy!!!

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Mum giving me a ride to the pool!! She's the bestest mum in the world!!!

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The summer season is round the corner!!!! Let's go sun tanning!!!!hahaha

God has the keys of death!!

2005-05-27T15:09:00.000+08:00

The BS at NC was so refreashing- Angeline and I went for it. Thank God for blessing me and encouraging me each time I get there. The annointing is in that place-I can feel it in the worship already! :) Thank God for giving me the opportunity to learn more about him despite my busy exam schedule. I guess it's all worth it to put aside time for him as I am doing so each day I reflect in here.

Rev 1 : 17-18 " Do not be afraid; I am the First and the Last; I am He show lives and was dead, and behold I am alive for evermore. Amen. And I have the keys of Heades and Death"

My eyes are opened to know that I would not have to be afraid of anything including death-because God prepares a place for me-in Heaven I will live with HIm forever! That is hard to comprehend in our human mind but in the spirit, God is going to give us everlasting life if we would believe in HIM!

It's so encouraging to have comments from friends-Rigan you know what I mean! And Angel- Am praying he stays close to God and that God would be the answer to all her problems. Thank God for the opportunity to encourage her and pray for her.God is truly the answer to life's problems. Let those who lack wisdom, ask of God, those who lack health, ask of healing, those who are hurt, ask for comfort, those who have financial needs, ask for God to provide. He is truly my everything! Amen!

Hope the conference later at Victory Family would be good. And yes tomorrow-wedding and sunday church! I am almost having God all week! Praise God for giving me strength and determination! He gives me joy and comfort!

Oh it's already Thursday!!

2005-05-26T11:54:00.000+08:00

Ok i have effectively 5 more days to the finals!! Am I ready? I made all my notes- and now I can only practise papers or just read somemore-exams are always something I did not find really hard to mug for-but this week some distractions have been clouding my mind- For one, it is the hanging out of friends I miss. NUS And NTU are having holidays now-and they are either going off to an attachment or just bumming. Well, I don't really like bumming too much. It amounts to an utter waste of time! I rather read a book or conceptualize an idea or plan and then execute it. -learn Salsa, french, German etc

I spoke to Caring who I haven't seen ever since she went back to the Philippines. It would have been lovely to see her once again. Afterall, she has been so much apart of my life-she saw me grow up from 6-16! She is one amazing woman who have sacrificed her marriage life to come here and support her family with remittance. It's really breaks my heart to know that she tells me she is "old" now and is all alone at home. Wah- how can someone be so sacrificial? But most of the Philipinas are like that! Who should we put the blame on? Sometimes, I feel it isn't fair, but what is fair? - But I know that she had her blessings when she was here. She became a christian here and would no longer be going towards Catholism. And she was such a blessing to my family! I thank God for her! (She won't be able to see this as she doesn't know how to access a computer) It makes me appreciate the things I have even more.

I went shopping yesterday after swimming. I bought a nice outfit for a cheap deal for the wedding this sat. I am all excited for it even though it is not mine. Weddings are so exciting! I used to be those kids who run around tables oblivious to what was going on but now I can appreciate the love that we celebrate! What a gift of God-love!:) I can't wait for mine but I know it won't be so soon as yet. God is dealing with me and preparing me to be the Ms Right.:)haha!

Thank God for mummy once again-she msn me from downstairs telling me the winner of the American Idol. Haha.! Tells me what time I can catch it on Startv this afternoon. And asks me to take a break off studying! Wah! I would like such a mum, won't you? She bought lobsters to celebrate-and she always does this during my exam prep week. I am motivated to study harder!:) It's a great way to inspire children to study-funny but it's true! She dresses up more trendy this days and says that I am her fashion consultant! Shouldn't it be the other way around? haha! Anyway- Thank God over and over again for such great , loving parents! They show me the love of my heavenly Father!:)

" Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us; For I am persuaded that neither death nor life , nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to seperate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus." Romans 8: 37-39

2005-05-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

One of my fav top down shots---- as you can see I really like photography...

2005-05-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

I'm fascinated with this scarf!! hahah:P

Stolen Miracle

2005-05-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

I was so touched by the movie I have just watched. I literally cried! hahah. The baby was abducted by a woman who could not have her own. And police had to find him on Christmas Eve. It trails the suspence and movements of 2 cops who are finding their way to the woman's hideouts and along the way, they find also meaning in their families. It brings me to mind how couples have to understand each other when their other half is away during a special season such as Christmas. It's time to celebrate love and I thought back at my Christmas and it was speacial. It was spent at Steff's home at Salzburg-where "Silent Night holy Night" was first composed. I had Austrian friends like Babsi and Irene coming over to Steff's place to say hello and that made me feel very warm. Steff and her family were very warm towards Ferene and I and we cooked them a christmas meal-Chinese Style!:) Haha-her mum kept talking about our cooking all night!!! She couldn't stop and that made me feel so glad she liked my cooking..hahah~!

Anyway, mugging at home can get distracting with the TV just there-but it gives me a break off work. I be going to church later for a missions get together dinner cooked by Pastor so that would make my day! Couldn't join Angel for swim and my prayer is that she mixes with the right fellas. God grants us wisdom to choose our friends and let us be around those that are building us up. Indeed, he gave me many opportunities to encourage those who needed help and I'm glad to take on that role!

Watching Star WArs with a couple of friends and Mama was quite an event-however I did not like the dark side of things. I usually would just close my eyes-natural reaction to block out the things that aren't good. Mama later offered to pay for the ring I wanted and that was sweeet of her!! I am blessed with a loving family-and bros who would give me real good advice when I write to them!:)

Now-I'll start reading more journals for Accounting Theory. I would finish it all up today and then revise Advanced Audit and Advanced Management Accounting. God give me determination and the results would be to your glory!:)Amen.

Fun while mugging!!

2005-05-23T17:26:00.000+08:00

Just got back from the East Cost Park!!! I love cycling and getting tan!! The sun was so hot and Will and I were like getting burnt. But it was fun to watch everyone having such a fun public holiday. The windsurfers were speeding across the waters so fast - the wind was blowing so strong!:) I did not feel myself getting darker as the wind made me so refreshed! Staying at home would have been so saddening. Now I'm happyily making notes for the finals next week!

Starting a business has it challenges. And we trashed it out for 2 hours today. Yes-talking about doing a start up . It's time to really harness all your energy and creative juices to construct and execute a plan and goal. With two people working closely with me now- I feel quite confident we can roll it out by this year!:) Thank God for giving me this opportunity to learn. This is totally outside the books and outside the biz case challenges-this is for real!:)

Now that the wind of ecp has caused me to be refreshed-I can sense God renewing me with added strength and determination. Many people have commented that my blog is an inspiration for them!:) Ah-that is the whole point! I want to motivate people and be a blessing to others. Spoke to Ray last night for an hour and it feels so good to catch up with a great pal, even for just a short while.

"Your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask Him"-Matt 6:8
Truly Lord- I don't even need to write it out here!:)

God heals my hurts

2005-05-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

What should one do when one feels hurt??? Yes, it's always easy to get hurt when one speaks to you in a harsh and unreasonable way. But do we react in a negative way to speak back the same way? Should we brush it aside and blame it on the person for being of ill manners and insentive? People can be insensitive but we should manage our emotions. I have come to understand the importance to know where we stand on our grounds and if we truly have the conviction that we are not in the wrong-there is no point changing things. We can't change people. They only change themselves. Especially if the person is older than me. I rather not tell them that they have been hurtful. I would just think that it is not tactful to be harsh on someone especially if the person is in your team. What is the point?? Why can't one do it with more love? Afterall, we should be loving one another. Yes, indeed it can be hard, but God put love into our hearts and it should be easier to love others ! I have come to know sympathy. I sympatize with people who cannot understand that their actions are non-effective. Being harsh and saying hurtful words does not help anybody. It creates a tense atmosphere. I do not like such resentment.

" A soft answer turn away wrath, But a harsh word stirs up anger. The tongue of the wise uses knowledge rightly. But the mouth of fools pours forth foolishness" - Proverbs 15: 1
" A wholesome tongue is a tree of life, But perverseness in it breaks the spirit" Proverbs 15: 4

" A man has joy by the answer of his mouth, and a word spoken in due season , how good it is? vs 23

Indeed. God is teaching me the way of righteousness. Bless His Holy Name!

Christ In ME

2005-05-21T13:43:00.000+08:00

Ah! My breakfast and lunch- Nutella!! My fav!!!:)) Yes, Mugging for Audit and how I do it? I just researching for articles to include into the Finals. :) Haha. I like this kind of muggin!:) I dont' feel it a chore. I like to do research and read articles!

Anyway, last night BS at NC was really cool! 2 SMU friends and Angeline!:) Yes, even though we were at the over flow room, God's presence was great. He preached about Christ in US- Our Hope And Glory!:) Yes, He is my righteousness! I am thankful for that reminder. I really like the preaching at NC-it really encourages me! :) I guess I be going there more often.

Well, this sunday I be hoping that Amy would come to church with me. She is not saved yet. My prayer is that God will touch her this Sunday. Yes, we be visiting Jas's church at Bethany Cathedral as it is near her home.:)

Oh, Missions meeting at Calvary later to learn the dance steps for the mission trip. I love it!:) I just pray God gear me for the whole thing cause I'm a little apprenhensive about my take on the environmental conditions over there. I would be taking myself to Singapore in the olden days. I was sharing my thoughts with Dad and he told me Singapore was worse! Breakfast with Daddy is always so cool-he tells me stories of his childhood days!:) I guess I'm fortunate to have what Singapore is today.

So I have been missing tennish on Sats as I'm always waking up late and feeling lethargic. Well, I will discipline myself and do some sport over the next week. Yes, Study week but I have to keep "the temple of the Holy Spirit" in good shape too lah! haha!

So much for now. I will be back to more mugging on a rainy afternoon.:) no sleepiness but pure diligence for the glory of God!:) Thank God for my A in Adv Audit for 60% coursegrade!:)All Glory to HiM!

Colossians 1: 27- " To them God willed to make known what are the riches of
glory of this mystery among the Gentiles: which is Christ in you, the hope of
glory"

Your Love For Me

2005-05-20T16:20:00.000+08:00

yes, Woke up at 11am! Lazy lazy!! haha. Resting quite alot recently due to the viral bug. But I believe in quality Mugging!;) Yes, Mugging for Advance Audit now. It's all about IT! But it addresses recent issues on Audit and that is the interesting part! Life as a student is enjoyable- and I am treasuring moments like this when I can just read at my own pace. But the real working world is not like that! :) Anyway, I guess Singapore is an industralist society and we all have tonnes of work piled on our shoulders. But God is there to lift our burdens-That is the amazing thing about being a Christian.

Oh I guess living each day with Jesus is meaningful. Sometimes, one can be caught up with work and success and lose the real meaning of life. I spoke to a friend yesterday over the topic: Relationship. Indeed, it is important for us to submit to God about our marriage partners. He knows what's best for us. But how does he bring him to us? The question is whether us girls should take the first move? Should we tell him or should we just sit around and be pretty.:) I feel that men should still be doing the chasing, the reverse just seems wierd. After all, we women have to be submissive to our husbands. But would the role of submission be diminished if we were the ones to pursue the relationship? It is said to be 99% of our problems are human-related. I am praying that God will give me the discerning spirit to tell if he is the one for me or not. And I believe in obedience to God. After all it is important to be "equally yoked".

So much for my thoughts. I guess I'm going back to more mugging and eating!:)

2005-05-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

All Smiles after the last seminar at the SMU Bukit Timah Campus! I will miss it!

I love Rainy Days!!

2005-05-19T18:22:00.000+08:00

Yes.. The Rain is a blessing in Singapore when the weather would be otherwise scotching hot! I love the rain-even though it gets too chilly in the library- I still love the rain. The mood gets abit relaxed when the rain comes. Somehow-I feel my stress level lowering when it rains! haha!

Yeah, so I am gearing myself for the exams. I feel my peers in class are too hardworking-it makes me look lazy. They get up so early to study and I'm snoozing all the way past 10 everyday! I shall have to really wake up now to work harder if not I might not keep up! Is it the Chinese Culture or is it just SMU!? People are working way too hard. What is most important is quality time at work. For me, I concentrate while studying and am putting in breaks in between for relaxation. Yes, I'm planning to watch Star wars this Sunday. Friday BS at NC, Sat Missions meeting and many more! Even cell meeting yesterday was like a relaxation to me! I always make sure I get something done before I go for those RR meetings.

I guess I'm on my way to better days. Each day I'm gearing myself more towards acquiring knowledge. Self motivation is a gift I believe. It comes out of some people and those people are usually not the complainers. I don't like people to complain. It makes me feel they are unresourceful and unappreciative. Yes, I am guilty of it myself, but I have to be constantly aware that complains aren't good if what results of it is resentment and bitterness. It is just like the concept of "healthy stress". It effectively causes one to work harder but not to the limit that health is sacrificed.

I am reminded of God's goodness each time it rains. The cool air calms me down and makes me breathe better. I feel a sense of freashness coving the earth. Oh I thank and praise the name of the Lord, for He is good!:) There is no reason to be sorrowful, all reason to be glad.

Yes, I thank God for Daddy to pick me up from school. I guess today marks the last lesson I be having in SMU campus at Bukit Timah! I'll miss the green campus! Dad talks with me all the way home in the car. I feel motivated to work just seeing my Dad as he has such great desire in his readings. Yes, I have to show myself " approved unto God a workman-rightly dividing the truth"

" I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus"
Philippians 3: 14

God sized assignments

2005-05-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

Today's cell was great!:) I am glad I went for it as I was still having a runny nose. Praise God for healing-Jess laid her hands on me and she prayed. And now I feel so much stronger!:) I am thanking God for His grace upon my life. He teaches me to be wise and abstain from all unrighteousness. He makes me whole once again!

My prayer is for Ray to come back to the Lord. I am praying God reveal your truths upon his life and let him know that you are truly the "way , the truth and the life". I am glad that Angeline is coming closer to you ! She attends BS and service with me as and when she cans. If only she would just quit her weekend job and come to church with me .. *hinting*

I spoke to Ali and yes, I'm gearing myself for the missions trip. I think God is wanting me to learn servanthood through this whole expedition. I pray God give me His love for people and keep me strong throughout the entire trip! I am looking forward to the whole experience!

Yes Rigan-it's great to go to church together as friends. I usually love the Friday BS there! :)

God is reminding me to be discerning. Many relationships can be spoilt if we do not have the discerning spirit of God to know what to do. He gives us wisdom. My prayer is that I would find favor and that God will bless me with true friends. I am thankful for my close friends who share the experiences of my life. They are such great encouragement to me!

It's cool to have great meals and talk sessions with my parents. I feel I learn to be more matured when I hang out more with them. I learn how parenting can be such a gift from God!:) I'm looking forward to it ... hahaha

Ok some random thoughts today before I go to bed. I am downloading songs from the cd-Women of Faith-the one my mum is listening to everyday! A verse on a bookmark a friend gave me:

"Thou wilt shew me the path of life; in thy presenceis fulness of joy,in thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore." Psalm 16:11

Thank God for that!!

My sleeping Day

2005-05-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Ok so I have slept the entire day-and am down with throat infection once again! It puzzles me why the anti-biotics did not work. Indeed, God is the only one who works! He grants me healing. And I believe God is revealing things to me by having me stay at home for one full day. I woke up at 5 am in search for medicine and right in my room-I prayed to God He heals me and indeed he has! I feel so much stronger than before, and I believe I would be stronger to study for my finals in 2 weeks!

Well, so I have missed AT class once more today-and I'm glad I chose to stay back to rest. Right now, I have stock take as to why my health has not been as good as it should be: Late nights, not enough water, not brushing my tongue, not taking my vitamins, stress etc. It is like being hit twice to know what it is for better health!haha! Ok, so I have had great friends who would be concerned about me and my parents who give me neverending support. I am ever so thankful for that!:)

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication , with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds, through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7

Indeed, I will not worry for tomorrow or what my future holds. I trust that God has a great plan for my life. Why should I be anxious? Indeed, there is no peace except that which is found in our Lord Jesus. I feel so safe and secure.

Right, let me now go read some stuff before the medicine settles in and makes me drowsy once more! Thank God for a rest day and strengthening me!

Blessed Hope

2005-05-14T11:44:00.000+08:00

I am reminded of God's goodness in my life as I walked into Bible Study at NC. I really liked the worship there and could feel God's presence. I found myself frantically jotting down notes as he referred to the verses of Matthew and Romans. Once again we are reminded that "there is now no condemnation to those that are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.-Romans 8:1

I am thankful for the blessed Hope I have in Him to know that our rewards are in Heaven. We hae to constantly store riches in Heaven and not that on Earth-for those would pass away. I am encouraged by the fact that God sees the heart and would reward us for things that have worth or are worthless-2 Cor 5: 10

I would want to go back there to learn more about God-I am amazed that the Audithorium is always packed! Well, later I would go and study the Word more at Bethany-the preaching there is great too-the preachers are studying the Greek interpretation of the Bible-and that is pretty amazing. I guess whatever that is dry-if the Holy Spirit is working, we would not find it a chore reading such works. (I'm praying it works for my studies! haha)

Indeed, Angeline has been coming back to the Lord and coming for BS even though she has a runny nose. I am encouraged to know that I can be a company to her and also to Val who goes for YAG at Bethany. Although this is taking alot of my time off my studies- I would take it as an added boost from the Word-because it is powerful!

I am blessed by the Lord-and I want to thank God for that!

2005-05-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. We sang a song to Ray who really likes to bite candles!!!.ahaha

2005-05-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

We have been such old friends!!!!!

2005-05-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

Jas's 22 at Phin's Steak!!!!

My dreams...

2005-05-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

thank God For taking away my spliting headache!:) I had such a bad one all evening. I think it is the air, or perhaps, I have too much on my mind! The biz start up is taking alot of my brain cells, but it is a real life experience tt puts my learning at school into perspective. Now I'm going to do up a fin. statement of my own! Ok, let's see, Will is coming on board too! Ok.. so it's going to be 3 of us. Any other peeps out there who wanna see something grow?:)haha..yes, it's very much a challenge for go-getter sort of ppl like me! Thank God for such supporting friends and family. It is very encouraging.

Cell was good yesterday. We Prayed and talked about what we hoped to have during our church camp this June. We are expecting a move of God that is life changing!:) I am excitied!

Psalms 103:

Bless the Lord; Oh my soul
And all that is within me
bless His Holy Name!
And forget not all His benefits:
Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies
Who satisfies your mouth
with good things,
So that your youthis renewed like the eagle's

Indeed, no doubt there are alot of work to do . I will not lose my focus on Him! I will seek him first, and all other things will be added unto me-according to HIS promise!

I'm going to study hard for Him, and work hard, and the results are to His glory. Glory be thy NAME!:)

The Sermon- Not perform to become

2005-05-09T12:14:00.000+08:00

I shall jot down quickly the serman notes from NC:
I felt the annointing was so great at the ROCK!

Lev 14: 1-7 speaks about cleansing of the Leper
Clensing in hebrew- of bodily defects and infirmatives
- WE dont have to perform the ritual to become cleansed.

Acts 1-: 10-16 speaks about God telling us : "What I have cleansed, you must not call common"
Common- Unclean
Romans 10- we gotta speak the Faith!

"Without Faith, it is impossible to please God"
- we should enjoy the process of Faith!
I have been much blessed by the Word.

Once again, the first service talked about putting on the whole armour of God. :) It pieces all nicely together!

For today, I be having one presentation in the afternoon. I know God is in Control of my life. I am so encouraged by Romans 4: 16- " Therefor it is of faith that it might be according to grace, so that the promise might be sure to all the seed..."
Wow, by God's grace, I am glad the promise is sure. God gives me hope for my future! I wake up feeling refreashed and renewed. He gives me strength and motivation to work hard !

2005-05-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

Singapore Sling!!:)) With Barbara..and George!

Mother's Day!!!

2005-05-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

Ah!! Ok so I have had a really cool weekend! Been to the old folk's home on Sat with Bethany- that was a really refreshing experience! I felt really happy seeing those folks smiling when we sang them the hymns. And the guy I spoke to , he was a free thinker and when I asked him if he would want to believe in God- he said yes! WAH! I felt really glad- he was looking weak but I'm glad he actually said yes!:) praise God!

Sunday was cool- rainy and all but morning service @ Calvary reminded about the Holy Spirit being in all of us believers. He reaffirmed that speaking in tongues is for today and not for the old times only. He also mentioned that we should not bury our talents. Indeed, God has given me talents- I know that and I would want to use them for His Glory. I believe I am and would work towards having Him use me more!:)

After, I had lunch with mama!! Yeah.. Sweet Mama's day. I got her fresh orchids delivered to the house. Yeah, it was from the nursery and is in a pot! I do hope it would last!! My Dad loved them too!:) Yeah, I choose the plant and Val helped me. We also chose a pot to go with it. I made a card, tied a ribbon and she was pleasantly surprised as it was all propped up in the living room when she was all set to leave for the party at Aunt Ad.

Yes PARTY at Aunt Ad was simply great! We had some fun playing Phase 10-yes i played with Nick,Asher,Aldon,Liqi,Lincoln. We all had penang laksa cooked by Aunt Ad! WOW.. that was superb!:) And yes, I rolled some po pia for Mama and Uncle Jon and Aunt Anna.:) they liked my tightly rolled popia!!:)

Ok. I got back from dinner with mama at Crystal Jade. I went to get her some surprise Lillies!:) And i requrested it be tied in great plastic instead of the usual paper. IT looked so pretty- Angeline and her mum too liked it. We went to NC for 4pm service. It started at 5 but it was DEFINITELY worth the wait. THe message was about healing! And God did heal me of my ulcer in the mouth almost instantly when I walked it. Amazing! And I believe he has healed me of my back problem. He is my healer. And yes, We have to speak the faith!

I am thoroughly filled up today and all refreshed for the start of the week . I thank God for His Word-it encourages me! Love you Lord!:) And yes , thanks for giving me such a wonderful, loving MUM!